Someone close to me informed me they really need some touch support... and I just don't have it right now. I feel bad about it, but I just don't have that capacity right now.
I shouldn't feel guilt, but it's there.
Touch is so horribly overwhelming right now, I can't do it for more than a moment or two.
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You know the Wachowski sisters hate you idiots, right?
I am so tired of the US.
Let's see... Republicans are nazis, so they're out.
What are my dem primary choices...
Joe Biden... Ugh. His only redeeming quality is at least he's not Trump.
Marianne Wlliamson. Hey, a woman! Who's she?
*search* Oh... she's someone who thinks there's a link between vaccines and autism.
*heavy sigh*
I fucking hate this.
Can I write in "Anyone with some god damn intelligence and compassion who's not old enough to remember the invention of electricity"?
This might sound silly, idk... probably the years of bullshit making me thing it sounds silly...
Just chilling in my car a bit, stimming to the music and yeah, that's helpful. I don't understand WHY it helps, but it does.
Also, good to know my shocks are ok. 🤣
I wonder how much the "does not play well with others" on my real early report cards was just
- overstim
- having no idea how to social
- avoiding bullying
- intolerance of these... humans disrupting my time, space, activity, and routine.
I hope nobody minds...
In response to realizing how much hurt I inadvertantly allow to be inflicted upon me by fawning, I'm countering that...
I'm on a quest to be as unapologetically my autistic self as possible. I reference it a lot, and I will keep doing so till those around me have just accepted it's presence as mundane.
Taking up a human sized amount of "space" in the world is not entitlement, special treatment, or selfishness.
Feel free to join me on this quest.
I really want to see brain activity while stimming vs not stimming, autistic vs allist.
This slug needs a name!
nostr:npub13r2npqqavrtr4lscfxfx5x4z5qxny2ke3u8chefudnjr6nwaya8smqg4t7 I said it, that's how.
I say it often, actually.
I even said it while questioning your nonsense about stimming being an addiction.
And yes, even neurotypicals stim, they just arrogantly declare THEIR stimming and ONLY their stimming as socially acceptable.
nostr:npub13r2npqqavrtr4lscfxfx5x4z5qxny2ke3u8chefudnjr6nwaya8smqg4t7 WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT?! THE NEED TO STIM IS JUST A TRAIT OF AUTISM!
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My words work fine. You called autistic stimming an addiction. That does not make sense.
Are you confused? Are you thinking of a different definition of stimming? Or are you an asshole bullying an autist?
So far, It seems it's that last one.
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I'm sorry, what? Stimming isn't an addiction, what are you talking about?
Am I out of my mind, or is a feeling of "I can't stim hard enough!" a thing that makes sense to others?