At the very beginning, exploration and integration is fun but later on it is just isn’t worth sacrificing who you originally is; your identity, vision, dreams and culture.

You can’t survive or live happily within a culture that isn’t yours.

It was a terrible feeling, sorry that you had to go through it too but it shall pass once you completely remove yourself out of it.

I like it here but what happened to me? that isn’t me nor what I have ever wanted to be.

Boxed because you want to be there but your past younger, way more ‘successful’ you hates it.

Nothing is too complex, unfortunately, you’re just being boxed.

I have been there,

Where I had to do things just to prove a point then I immediately stopped when I realised that I was slowly manipulated into doing exactly what they wanted me to do🤷🏻‍♀️

Sorry bunny lol🐰

If I were a bunny lol 🐰

https://m.primal.net/MptL.mov

lol

https://m.primal.net/MpNc.mov

😌✨

Fun times✨

I am happy.

I am healthy

I am young

I have a loving family

I have enough monthly income

I am attractive

I am fit

So where is this feeling of being rested, calm, and content even coming from?

No I am not spiritual nor religious, I havent prayed in a whole year.

I am 100% mentally sober and physiologically rested but I have no idea why I am feeling this way.

I am empty but not empty and I have no idea how to explain it even to myself.

I feel like I want to rip the bones out of my niece body ( that how much I love her ) but I don’t feel like having my own.