Yesterday I got a surprise bill for a VPN service. Thought I got hacked because I'm not using any VPN service presently.

Turns out I did sign up for this service 17 months ago, stopped using it after a week, and forgot to cancel the renewals.

Terms of service specifies that renewals are not eligible for refunds. I received no renewal warning email either. How fucked up is that?

I had a brief moment of relief after kicking my cabinet door in, but then the anger returned. I still felt like punching people and/or getting punched. Punched my chair a few times then convinced myself to get outside.

Geared up for a 30F bicycle ride. Usually these rides make me happy but not today. Annoyances everywhere. People walking their dogs on extended leashes. Noisy construction. Cars on cars on cars during the morning rush.

Tried extra hard to avoid eye contact with everyone. No smiles and micro-nods today.

Bought a family size bag of Doritos. I never buy Doritos. Bought a frozen pizza and maruchan ramen.

Rode home and ate the entire bag of Doritos. Then convinced myself to mow my parent's lawn. Didn't get very far. First now of the year, mower needs new oil. No oil on hand.

Picked up dog poop and pinecones instead. Planning on picking up some oil tomorrow.

Not tired enough to sleep, but too depressed to work on the database issue. I have another project I could work on, but I can't stop thinking that it's an illth that shouldn't exist.

I'm taking bottom barrel jobs because I'm desperate to make more money. I'm getting paid about a dollar an hour because I devalue myself and don't stick up for myself. I don't tell people how much time the task will actually take, I just pick a dollar amount that seems like a price I could afford.

I can't wait till tomorrow. Today is bleh.

journal entry earth date 2024-04-11. couldn't sleep. been working on database maintenance for the past three weeks. hit a blocker and feeling very angry for not being done yet. feeling inadequate and depressed.

restless legs. desire to enter combat. tried to sleep it off. 1 hour nap and right back to worry and anger. intense desire to punch a hole in the wall. slept for another 20 minutes.

woke up incredibly angry. thought about going to pick a fight with a stranger. settled on donkey kicking my cabinet.

Fuck, now my cabinet is broken.

Vultr Kubernetes Engine (VKE) partial outage. Listening to WBD and studying JP while I wait.

Day 4 of sharing my old musichttps://m.primal.net/HtPI.mp4

I brought up that issue specifically because I don't think it's going to work on lower end phones. For 7+ years I lived with a shitty hand-me-down android phone that not a single lightning wallet would run on. If it somehow could load the app, there's no way it's camera would have the framerate to read this animated QR code. If Bitcoin is for rich people then fine, it's a non-issue, but if Bitcoin is supposed to scale to serve all the people of the world, this app is flawed.

Elon has a canned response for extraterrestrial life. "I haven't seen any evidence..."

But has he seen the Nimitz encounters, and if so, what's his explanation?

WTF was that QR code that you have to keep scanning? Looks like an accessibility nightmare that's only going to work on a modern smartphone.

That cluttered UI with all the buttons is information overload!

And the animations, I'm cringing so hard. God I hate modern tech stacks.

p.s. I have ADHD I was anxiously clicking/watching and I zapped by accident

#MakeBitcoinSimpleAgain

Developers, how do you manage secrets?

I use a Pomodoro timer every day to help me focus on work. There's just one problem. I can't find a Pomodoro timer that does exactly what I want.

Too many timers are bloated javascript bohemoths that are sluggish as hell on my aging hardware.

Too many timers have undesirable extras like todo lists, stat tracking, and music.

Too many timers want to know my name, e-mail, or other information.

Too many timers have distracting or irrelevant UI elements that I'll never click on.

Too many timers require many clicks to start a break or start a work period.

Am I the only one who struggles with this?

Sorry, was Apr 5 Satoshi's birthday?

I would like your favorite life hack, please.

What is the "outbox model" I keep seeing mentioned?

hi

I like how Duolingo gaslights me into studying more by making a leaderboard based on time spent completing lessons.

Perfect streak for all of March!

https://invite.duolingo.com/BDHTZTB5CWWKSG2STXM5RL3UOY?v=if

cool stuff here

nostr:note1k2lyx584zgc8f379fhwk3emcxrw297j5p4tkwzru2ml9qkahlzfqacnr8f

looking forward to watching ironmouse watch cdawgva and team ride bicycles across Japan for the next two weeks!

I used to write 2000 words daily on my blog. I shut it down because I didn't want to spend the time and money maintaining a WordPress site that had grown too large for the vps on which it ran. Nothing wrong with WordPress, actually I really like that software.

Really it came down to what's important and what has a return on investment. I never saw a cent from my blog; it only consumed money. on the other hand, I was seeing income from my other projects, so I shut down my blog to focus my energy.

I miss writing. Writing gives me mental clarity because doing it means I dump thoughts from my brain. Once expressed, I don't think about them anymore and I move onto some other topic.

So maybe #nostr is here to help. Maybe I dump my thoughts here now, and reclaim some headspace.

I was strictly vegan for 7 years. don't regret it, but probably wouldn't do it again. Not without help, anyway. I really hate cooking so I would eat lots of salty, oily food, or not eat at all. Spent a lot of time constipated.