every forgiveness makes it worse
every honesty makes it worse
i am aware
& im really fucking actually sorry for that
there is nothing i can do
does that make it better or worse
it is the same math
i am going to leave this blank as grace or whatever
have the mercy of the deleted message
if he's grateful in 5 years actually
cool
idk have a free yoga class for people who cant afford it
thats thank you enough
i dont care about a thank you
thats just perfunctory politeness
coming from him
not my fault i cleared everything i could tirelessly without him even noticing or getting the chance to realize enough to even say thank you
but he decided to pass
& i didnt have a choice trapped inside it
could just as easily be meditating
sewing
making a pine needle basket
mopping
bathing
it is all the same thing
like paper cranes
making emotional paper cranes
emotional yoga
everything is practice & praying
choosing to kill time this way
doing the work over & over & over & over
cos there is little else to do today
at any time
i can not write
it would be the same if i was painting
at any time
i can not paint
when im writing which is a creative process
i have to make my way thru my planets there
john kane & so many others teach on this far far better than me
what else is there to do
its a beautiful day
ive got water from hawaii & iceland
ive got cigs
-\_ (ツ)_/+
i dont live in an active warzone
what else is there to do
its a beautiful day
ive got water from hawaii & iceland
ive got cigs
-\_ (ツ)_/+