Kinda embarrassing (please ignore the bad drawing 😩). I must be a masochist cos I enjoy embarrassing myself on here, sharing bits of myself with you all 🤔. Feels scary but good.

I started drawing again - for fun - and i found some old stuff. Here’s an old film I made when I was at uni yeeears ago.

After months I scrapped the original idea cos I was so frustrated. I lost faith and passion because I kept getting conflicting feedback from my peers and tutors and felt that nobody understood what I was trying to do - my fault. I’m not the best at presenting. I so badly wanted to pull the idea out of my head and hold it in front of them, because they couldn’t see what I could. It made me doubt myself and I ended up scrapping the idea two/one weeks before the deadline and start from scratch.

I completely disappeared from the world, asked my then boyfriend for some space to work and became a ghost to my family. I sat down and decided to just draw how I felt instead of having an actual story. I really wanted to sleep and go outside - touch grass. It ended up paying off, they liked it (god knows why).

It made me realise that even though the people around you may have good intentions, they won’t always see things the way you do, or understand what you’re trying to do. You just have to trust the process, keep the passion, keep moving forwards, trust yourself and why you started doing what you’re doing in the first place.

Am I a pussy for posting this so early/late in the AM on a Sunday when I know hardly anyone will be online? Mayyyybe, but I still posted it 🫂

Hey GM my Nostriches!! 💜

I’ve decided to take a break from nostr, it felt like the quality of my notes lacked, I was sooo fixed to this vibe here, in an almost unhealthy way! 👀 so I gained some new perspectives :)

But I miss you guys!! Will take my time to response and see what I’ve missed :) probably many awesome and inspiring notes ✨😁 and I hope you’re fine. 💜🫂

Well I was at the dentist and they removed the wisest of my teeth. Just another day where I could fight my fear of injections 👀💪🏼 (I’m almost chill with needles) a friend gave me some arnica (homeopathic) and I do really believe it made the healing process waaay better 😯💚

I spend some time sunbathing, with my dog or with my friends 🌞 I was able to fully listen to myself, organize my thoughts and grow in some way…. 💫

And about my garden, I got blueberries 🫐 and put them in forest soil & I got a lemon tree 🥳🍋🌳

And I planted onions, spinach & spring onions! Soon I will put the potatoes out, too. 🥔

Also, we have some babies at the farm! Check the slide 🫶✨🥚

Share some thoughts with me, I’d love to read them! Have a good day. 🌞💚