Afternoon. The brightest hour of that very day. A small step to the outside of the usual process. // 📷 366skies
4pm and on. Running out of memory, fortunately just in a technical sense. Counters increasing, tense watching whether things will get through or fail on the very last steps. All too often, issues come down to rather mundane limitations. (Trying to engage in a philosophical exchange with the model on that v... notes.z428.eu https://notes.z428.eu/2024/07/24/pm-and-on.html
(Reset. Reboot. New machines connecting old machines. Imposters taking control, dissatisfied with this particular wednesday so far, wondering whether the afternoon will suffice to still change that.)
Schrittmaß im Wortsinne, irgendwann. Füße auf weichen Lindenblüten, auf trockenem Unkraut, manchmal auch auf den Fugen der groben Steinplatten. Entlang der Glasfassade: Eigene Reflektion wahrnehmen, in einem wiederkehrenden unterbewussten Ton von Unzufriedenheit. Mürrische Ordnungsbeamte verteilen Strafze... notes.z428.eu https://notes.z428.eu/2024/07/24/schrittma-im-wortsinne.html
10am and on. Moving up moving down and still failing to find the right position on desk and chair today. Relocated to office, another coffee and some calls later the day is again proving its will to shape itself. (Dimming these windowblinds. Lost in mesmerizing shadowplay for a moment. Involuntary breaks o... notes.z428.eu https://notes.z428.eu/2024/07/24/am-and-on.html
Morgen und Warten. Routinen der Sauberkeit im Heimbüro, mittlerweile: E-Mails, Statusberichte, Krümel auf der Tastatur. Routinen der Nachbarn, im Treppenhaus: Schlagende Wohnungstür, energische Schritte treppab, begleitet von hörbarem Gähnen. Schlagende Haustür. Ein Motor startet. Über den Dächern ließ re... notes.z428.eu https://notes.z428.eu/2024/07/24/morgen-und-warten.html
10pm and on. Sounds of rain but still the street is dusty and dry. A chill of growing storms on bare skin but yet the stones of the sidewalk are hot with the sunlight of a past day. A few notes between the lines of the page, more scribble than actual writing. Snapshots of the current state of thoughts, mor... notes.z428.eu https://notes.z428.eu/2024/07/23/222815.html
Wieder erheblich später. Transit, Sturm im Rücken, Asphalt voran ein glattes leeres Band unter trüben Lichtkegeln, gesäumt von gelbem, braunem, grünem Gestrüpp, das im Vorbeiziehen Struktur und Form verliert. Vage Schauer hüllen den Horizont ein, der Abend verblasst, aufgegriffene Worte aus Gesprächen wer... notes.z428.eu https://notes.z428.eu/2024/07/23/wieder-erheblich-spter.html
(Disteln, Schotter, Beton. Alte Garagen duften nach Öl und altem Holz. Wer Gespräche hört, hört einen anderen Dialekt, der fremd geworden und trotzdem dumpf nah klingt. Immer wieder unterwegs.)
4pm and on. About to switch different selves, trying to be the best possible in each of these, and never really excelling at this. Moving with the music the clouds the wind the barely visible hazy sun. Elsewhere, almost. Summer, as a sentiment again, in many different possible ways.
Humility (noun): The strategy of being careful not to blame people for technical issues observed unless absolutely, totally, full sure not to be responsible by oneself for whatever problem arose. Lack of knowledge and procedure included.
Pause, irgendwo inmitten von wenigen Erkenntnissen und mehr Fragen. Kopf ansonsten leer, mentaler Spurwechsel, eine spürbare Herausforderung, weil die Bewegung immer wieder zurück in die seit der Frühe eingeübten Bahnen drängt. Nachvollziehen der jüngeren Historie anhand des Postausgangs, anhand der Versio... notes.z428.eu https://notes.z428.eu/2024/07/23/pause-irgendwo-inmitten.html
9am and on. Different office, same sounds and it seems most of this city is one big construction site these days. Hard to imagine how big this saw has to be, given the noise it emits. (Too, home office slowly heating up again and sometimes having calls with camera disabled is a privilege not to underestima... notes.z428.eu https://notes.z428.eu/2024/07/23/am-and-on.html
Early morning. Watching the day wake and breathe. A few moments of serenity before the usual flow. // 📷 366skies
(Schließlich: Wieder aufwachen. Neuer Morgen zwischen schmalen Augenlidern. Abkühlung, ein vorsichtiger Lufthauch lässt Staub tanzen. In der Straße schreit die Alarmanlage eines Autos mit den Schwalben um die Wette, das Wasser für den zweiten Kaffee köchelt langsam und die angerissenen Themen haben Schlaf ... notes.z428.eu https://notes.z428.eu/2024/07/23/schlielich-wieder-aufwachen.html
Considerably beyond 11pm. Head spinning with definitions and declarations. Something usually fails, but missing context fuzzes boundaries between determinism and obscurity. At least that's the theory. Or hope. Not much more to expect right now while this sky still tries to decide on an appropriate brightne... notes.z428.eu https://notes.z428.eu/2024/07/22/considerably-beyond-pm.html
Not sure this needs a content warning. Re-occuring favourite linked to a certain period in life, rarely played for a long time after that. Guess this is what makes music more intense even in all its weirdness.🙈https://video.mecp.de/watch?v=H5RuaWRkRRM
Following up: Same level. Same album. Same odd lyrical style. Starting with the title... 😁https://video.mecp.de/watch?v=IklwCCucG9M
Offene Fenster, viele Stunden später. Resthitze, Nachtkühle, Fledermäuse und ein montagsleises Viertel. Etagen weiter unten, fast verborgen vom Grün der Hofbüsche, liegen Nachbarn in den Hängematten des Balkons, umgeben von Windlichtern. Weingläser tönen dort, wo Gespräche und Musik fehlen und das Milde de... notes.z428.eu https://notes.z428.eu/2024/07/22/offene-fenster-viele.html
Sounds legit. // 📷 lost-in-moments
