9am and on and feeling slightly off temporal track, mentally already halfway through the day again. Loose ends in short timeframes, disjoint problem sets, different people and the experience of being challenged by not just switching topics too fast but also changing communication moods too often. More coff... notes.z428.eu https://notes.z428.eu/2024/12/06/am-and-on.html

"The bond is the blood The bond is the pain I'd do it all, I'd leave it all again But why did all the bad things happen to you? Why did all the bad things happen to you?

You are the sun I've been reflecting your light since the day I was born And I know what you're capable of I saw it on the shores of Ith... notes.z428.eu https://notes.z428.eu/2024/12/06/the-bond-is.html

Neuer Morgen, Treppenhaus: Kinderstiefel, Tannenzapfen, Orange, Walnuss. Glänzendes Papier. Hinter einigen Türen raschelt erwachende Unruhe. Ferner regnet es heftig. Baustellenverkehr dröhnt unsichtbar über die Kreuzung, lässt den alten Beton vibrieren. (Wieder oben: Erster Kaffee, erstes Seufzen, erstes B... notes.z428.eu https://notes.z428.eu/2024/12/06/neuer-morgen-treppenhaus.html

Closing in on 11pm. Retreating, slowly. Letting the day settle. Collecting all of its different moods, wrapping them up, folding them into small talismans to keep on a shelf to watch the world as the hours of sleep pass through. Or the hours of maybe-sleep, of inner voices chatting and dream states shiftin... notes.z428.eu https://notes.z428.eu/2024/12/05/closing-in-on.html

"A single moment was enough to create this: A retinal distraction when a scatter of light Hits and forms an image Perfection is the harshest term The shade of your eyes is a curse, it's a curse Don't look at me Don't look at me, it hurts."

(Always. Forever.)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gB-OL38eQ4Q

... notes.z428.eu https://notes.z428.eu/2024/12/05/a-single-moment.html

Einige Stunden weiter: Stadtlichter, Riesenrad, ein Schwall aus Menschen. Buntes Glänzen, Duft von Holz, Wein, schlechtem Parfum. Nähe, Schwindelgefühl, das bis hinter die große Straße anhält und auch jenseits des Flusses nur langsam abklingt. Dazu andere Ferne, andere Sorgen und gedachte Hände im Halbdunk... notes.z428.eu https://notes.z428.eu/2024/12/05/einige-stunden-weiter.html

2pm and on. Wrestling words, purpose, meaning. Wrestling boundaries and separation. Too many different ends of ropes, too many pulling into different directions. The challenges of explaining complex issues to people who are supposed to explain them to people even further down the line. The model comes up w... notes.z428.eu https://notes.z428.eu/2024/12/05/pm-and-on.html

Mittagspause, irgendwann neben eng gestapelten Blöcken. Auch die Technik ist erkältet, aber ihr Husten hört sich nicht so kratzend und verstörend an. Fehlende Berechtigungen, gesperrte Kanäle, verlorenes Schulterzucken. Keine Wolken am blassblauen Himmel. (Auch: Die Sonne schafft es immer durch die schmale... notes.z428.eu https://notes.z428.eu/2024/12/05/mittagspause-irgendwann-neben.html

Early morning. The quietness before the noise. Listening to the sore city breathing in its late dreams. // 📷 366skies

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8am and on. Window opened, cold air on face and skin. The fountains are silent, the office backyard is, too. Keeping distance for good, watching sun rise, listening to the conversations in rooms nearby. Being part of it. And yet being slightly separated from things for now.

Etwas weiter, die schwer fassbare Stimmung morgendlicher Busse. Ein Geschäftsmann starrt verdrießlich in den erwachenden Tag, hält einen Rollkoffer eng bei sich. Neben der Tür steht ein alternder Hipster mit grüner Brille, hinter dichtem grauen Bart und unter schweren Kopfhörern versteckt sich ein faltiges... notes.z428.eu https://notes.z428.eu/2024/12/05/etwas-weiter-die.html

10pm and not much further for now. Old stories and new stories and music from in between and back the years. Watching neighbours get up and go to sleep and do their dishes in small, narrow kitchens. Sleepy facades, tired streets, uncertain dreams, a distant idea of dawn just closing in on the horizon. And ... notes.z428.eu https://notes.z428.eu/2024/12/04/pm-and-not.html

Abend ist auch, wenn alle möglichen Fäden sich wieder ineinander verheddern und zu jenem Knäuel werden, das man schließlich in der Schublade verstaut. Im späten Licht verschwimmen die Farben und Muster, wirft die Aufmerksamkeit irgendwann das Handtuch, bleibt Ablegen, Vertagen, Ignorieren die beste Menge a... notes.z428.eu https://notes.z428.eu/2024/12/04/abend-ist-auch.html

4pm and on. Timer-controlled stars lighting up across the street. An anachronistic feeling, given it's still as bright as daylight possibly gets at this time of year. Also, moving around larger chunks of scheduled time. That weird sensation of standing near the edge of an appointment canceled on very short... notes.z428.eu https://notes.z428.eu/2024/12/04/pm-and-on.html

Afternoons. An idea of rain. Collecting new light through old windows, and other weird metaphors. Always a bit off track. // 📷 366skies

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A little later. Hallucinating systems. Drawing conclusions that seem flawed, from data that seems same as flawed. But at least by this there's consistency in things. Imagining the patterns of trees, following artificial branches and leaves instead. Trembling next to the cold beauty of abstraction.

Innehalten, plötzlich, halb durch die Agenda. Heimbüro weit lüften. Als wenn die gesprochenen Worte durch die staubige Leere irrten und freigelassen werden müssten, um Platz für neue zu schaffen. Ausgekühlten Tee trinken, mit sich selbst flüstern, die Stimme schonen. Daneben: Angesammeltes sichten, der Sta... notes.z428.eu https://notes.z428.eu/2024/12/04/innehalten-pltzlich-halb.html

Moving into 8am. Preparations done. As far as preparations are ever done. Trying to silence the inner imposter for a while, with the usual effect. Watching the neighbourhood windows turn brighter again, kids running for school, the busses moving through the crossroads more crowded, leaving one grateful for... notes.z428.eu https://notes.z428.eu/2024/12/04/moving-into-am.html

Drifting the void. Morning music while not completely awake yet too tense to rest.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TpQFo-nw-ms

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#ambient #blade_runner #cyberpunk #vaporware #music_for_mornings

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Morgen, auch: Trümmer der Nacht einsammeln. Auf verschiedenen Ebenen. Zu sich kommen, zu sich werden, langsame Annäherung an den Punkt, an dem man sich selbst halbwegs ertragen kann. Erster Kaffee. Zwielicht. Über dem westlichen Horizont treiben helle Wolken, während die Stadt dunkel und fern bleibt. Müllt... notes.z428.eu https://notes.z428.eu/2024/12/04/morgen-auch-trmmer.html