But its pretty good. Have been listening every time i have had possibility. Just now i forced my self verify myself, but still dont see point for that 😄 Just to see what are steps.

Goodnight everyone 🌛💜🫂

This movie is cool 🎥👻

Carnival of Souls ~ 1962

In our country, the dream of the majority is to settle in a village when they get old.

I do not have. I love city life.

Living in a small city can be difficult.

I'm bored over there.

Nice for the holidays. But it shouldn't be permanent.

Shit if you would really be my little brother 😂👀

Are you? Just kidding.

Thank you alot 🫂💜

Here's small story about change.

When i was young i started develop some mental health issues. There was alot of fighting and drinking on my home. At around 13-14 I got descripted SSRI medicines for deep depression.

I was pretty good in school always, in math / physics. Only english, my mother language and sweden was where i had stuggles becouse i could care less.

At around 15-16 i started drinking alcohol and "self medicine" myself with opioids almost everyday. I got money by stealing cigarettes from stores and selling them to random drug addicts for cheap price.

At 17 i moved in "boys home" or what ever. I did not mind, like i understand the reasons. And my life was not bad there becouse i have been always respectful and nice to others. Like i have never had that kindof problems. But i kept drinking and eating opioids.

When i got adult and moved to be with my self, everything did go shit. I quit schools, started using drugs every single day, more than before. I lost everything, my home, got deep into dept, and eventually lost my freedom and did go into prison.

At some point, after some years of pain, i was tripping my balls from some research chemical. I was thinking if i just get rid of my values or start "lying" to my self that im not this person i was. I choose later one. Step by step, struggling, taking steps back i start learning live different way. I did not stop using drugs but start taking respossibility of my actions. If i was hungry, i find another way than stealing, etc...

Some years goes by and finally i did get off from drugs. Was closer to 30 at that time. Moved many times, had left everything behind.

So.. At 2021 i heard about bitcoin again. I had used it before around 2011 - 2013 (for ummm 😂), and at this point i was not worked single day on my life. I had times when i got into some programs to get my self into work life, but it didint never work out.

So what now. Im working 4 days in week at nights under minimun wage. I dont own nothing really but dept (and bitcoin). But im happy and i have hope.

I have many peoples to thank, my friends who was with me, my mother.. And many of who i dont know but they made me see that theres hope in this world.

Stay beautiful 💜

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(Those ssri medicines never worked out, i have tried many of them and always just quit. Not eating them anymore for long time)

Have feeling that i should not post this, but if anyone have struggles with their own life, just remember, there's always possibility of change.

Can I use #nostr in China without VPN. I am traveling to china tomorrow.

You tofu can't even touch this when it comes to flavor and nutritional value @npub1hs55msz0awmpqt6e6t0zfn0sncp4quf5q0lxlkgrw6lw9479fmlsj2thd

#grownostr #foodstr #steakstr

Good morning 🌏🤗☕🫂💙

It was so yummy I’ll have to make more tonight 🤤 maybe a little less oil tho

that would be a nice last meal for something I was going to eat. best to run it through a ruminant and use what cones out as fertilizer and eat the ruminant.

#eatmeat #vegetarian

#vegan go #carnivore #meatstr

#ieatvegetarians #grownostr

Me in early zoom meetings.

Very interesting take, do you have any book recommendations that would illuminate that view point? My recommendation for you is David Graeber : 5000 years of debt , excellent read.

Gm 🫡 #coffeechain & #toiletchain 🧻