gotta defer to 2028
complicity entire
just cant be in san fran or cali in general
and dont like planes
and not gonna walk
georgia is fine so, i'll find a sweepstakes for that one
can be easy and very meditative / rote once ya get the hang of it. more complicated patterns can get more finicky but yea, simple ones can feel as easy as a three strand braid after awhile
if the only changes ya can truly rely on, observe, is local change on the ground
inner change
habit change
environment change
local habitat change
irl conversation change
yea shit is changing
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i mean.. that sounds extraordinary
yes and no
on one hand feels like ages
and another, like yesterday
acclimating without accidents
in more seriousness, state transition
noticing is all noticing some stuff that means slowing down
for instance: whatever is going on, for the first time in ages i ~do~ want to drink, and that's new and i dont love that and obviously wont
like neal with the piano
full well knowing savoring not having
can mean dying before ya can
cant live life that way
to me anyway
compelled by mortality alone or ticking clocks
gotta not give a fuck
to give a fuck is to be clock pressed
i can coast for the rest of my life on would
would goes really far in my world
not stressed about it
not in a rush
like besides the fact that any day can be one's last day and accidents happen and other terrible shit,
im fine and at peace about it
making moves on new inspirations too
not suffering needlessly to have more bandwidth to suffer needfully
as in: years without a winter jacket cos gave mine away
did get one today
simply dont share irl stuff a lot
to be securely attached
to know you are loved
cos can feel it
feeling safe helps immensely
on inhibition, or lack thereof
takes practice to speak with abandon
takes interior trust
helps to be a sagittarius tho
helps to be unemployed
half seconds add up
enough people are guarding enough doors
you launder this?
you manufacture consent for this?
im guarding the door bro
im fine to perish stopping you
im fine to perish delaying you a half second
not an inch of ground on this
genocide is unacceptable
that's just the way it is
eugenics is unacceptable
that's just the way it is
idk if this is gonna sound nuts
i know there is ample evidence to the contrary, im asking the reader for a small stroll, while explaining cos im pretty sure it is the truth
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Charmed: S3 Ep11: "Blinded by the Whitelighter" featuring Lashan Anderson as Unnamed Witch
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new riff
on the grounds of ableism
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imagine kicking someone's teeth and being like:
when that made you mad cos it hurt and it is expensive to fix i enslaved you actually
if fundamentally it is the same song
and it is
why is one so singular and the other nothing at all
in no mood. like zero mood for other shit out there.
the local haunt thing went great.
all else can go fuck itself
simply went on the walk
or like i am a vampire and they are my willing sentient walking talking food servants
its making me laugh cos its reminding me of the cardboard box head, chadam
can they not resist an upgrade like a hooked addict thing?
not in a scary way, not a demand
just like: hey, can you look at me a sec? can you see on my face and in my eyes im not mad at you?
jealous so jealous
of the ones who didnt discriminate thru time like that
the ones who came and stayed and started families for love
gonna listen to the radio for a bit
cspan capital R reality disconnecting grounding etc
im fine all fine
what if it isnt her being picky
what if this is about him