I thought I can stop feeling, start hiding that I don't care, but the more I do, the more I suffer. What have i've done. I'm really a coward who can't face you/talk to you.
I miss making you bfast, lunch dinner or even midnight snacks. You sleeping beside me when we're watching movie, you making me coffee, and I baking you some experimental cakes that you always eat. I'm sorry if I'm a coward
I miss you baba, you are always in my head. I listen to your youtube video whenever I wanna hear you talk. Feels like music in my ears that makes me sleep if I'm having trouble at night. I don't know why I;'m so emotional every time. I thought I've moved on. But I still cry every night, while taking a bath, driving or whenever :(. I know I left and this are my consequences