It's kind of hard to explain, and also more than just "i have difficulty seing"...but, I will try to explain.

I can not see people's faces and most of their body, making it neigh impossible to read body language or visual cues - I have to go off of one's voice entirely. This sometimes leads to misunderstanding but on the other hand... it means I can't "do" those either because I couldn't really learn them correctly. As a child, you copy what you see - and I saw nothing. So what I do is what I learned by word or other odd means.

On top of that, I have trouble approaching people IRL unless I need something specific (like asking for directions, or if someone could read a sign to me since I can't, like at a train station to figure out why a train is late).

Put my social incompetence together with the problem of not even being "fully" capable of returning that same expected behaviour, and things can get awkward, fast. x.x

That is why I have had to rely on long-term stuff like anchoring to a friend in a new group of people and using this as a bridge to slowly integrate. This, however, often ended up being mainly dude groups. x)

I hope that I can find a certain someone one day at work or school (apprenticeship), since I will have many more opportunities to attempt stuff. But in a short bursty situation like a single dating event, I am just plain incompetent and incapable x)

It's hard to explain those things honestly and possibly my biggest weakness. Online, I have no problem talking to people since it's all text. Offline however... I am, literally, per definition, disabled. x)

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I don't have time to respond, will respond fully later.

This is only a small comment about not seeing them & not being able to interpret them.

The way you describe it, you basically have the same problem autistic people have. Maybe you can research how they deal with it?

I'm sure they can tell you some tools & tricks regarding that topic. :)