GM guys. #[5] #[7]

Thanks for the heartfelt messages. 🫂

Even with 15+ years of therapy, talking about it openly like that fucks me up. Had a very hard time this night. Nightmares + sleep paralysis. Woke up screaming some times. Now it feels like I didnt sleep at all. I really wanna take some quetiapin and sleep thru the day but I'm actually gonna take a lot of coffee to stay up and watch out for my cats 'cause family woke up and set them loose. Dogs live nearby so I gotta stay vigilant until they all come back at the end of the day. This probably means migraines today 🫠🫠🫠 but theres medicine for that too so fuck it. The cats are more important.

Thank you so much for caring ❤️

Also thank you #[5] for that big zap. 5k is the highest I ever got here 🫂 it was not my intention at all to get zaps when I shared my trauma last night. It just felt like something I had to do. In the 22 years since it happened told less than 5 people about it. So I think last night was some kind of breakthrough for me. It was a really bad night but I think it was important, one step further towards healing.

Thank you again. ❤️🫂