Ok now I have some.

I was pretty much alone too, bro and sis from previous mariages but alone at home and anyway, it's not the same. And pretty much no other family.

I just lost my father 2 weeks ago and his other 2 kids had decided 35 years ago not to see him ever again. So I completely relate to what you've endured even if I wasn't alone, with my wife, my stepsister (not her dad but loved him) and my mother. But I'm the only true child of his who dealt with it completely.

Now I have 2 kids because I wanted them not to be alone. Not only for hard times but also for good times. And even if they're so little (1 and 3), there's already such a connection. It's so beautiful to see. And I just hope that it will last forever and that nothing will take them away from each other.

I really loved what you wrote even if the pain that comes out of your words makes me want to hug you, which I can't. But 🫂❤️‍🔥 anyway.