(That’s not helping.) To add a #last comment on the abstract unnamed thing… It cannot be clung to. It just happens once, as a choice. Doubt, is the constant calling, and idea that it can be grasped. Fear, is no confidence/faith that you can hold on to that truth (true one), and there’s never a reason to try to. Together, or apart; in life, or death. It’s like consciousness of the sun. It happens once, but does it go away on cloudy days? Actually, it never goes away, and is on the other side of the world. That is an exact representation.