#whatNikkiread

I always say, I don’t know what I’m looking for, but maybe I will find it out one day. So, in the process of finding *what I really want* I think I should go abroad, earn more money or say become financially independent and etc etc.

Recently I’ve been read The science of enlightenment by shinzen, although haven’t finished yet, I suddenly realize that what I want is to be happy. When I say being happy, I mean to maintain calm no matter what I encounter, and don’t feel suffering no matter what life gives me.

Why I always avoid directly face this problem? Why I always think maybe if I change the environment maybe I get pay more I would gradually solve all these problems?

But no, you can pursue it directly by what shinzen called applying concentration, clarity and equanimity to no matter what happens to you.