EVERY ONCE IN A WHILE ILL REREAD THE POSTS I WROTE ABOUT THAT DREAM AND TRY TO FEEL SOMETHING BUT I JUST CAN'T REMEMBER -- IT WAS VIVID FOR A WHILE AND NOW ITS COMPLETELY GONE
MEMORIES OF REAL EVENTS STICK AND LEAVE TRACES BUT THIS STUFF VANISHED SO COMPLETELY THAT THERE ISN'T EVEN ANY SENSE THAT SOMETHINGS GONE
I WONDER IF BEING LOVED WAS EVER REAL OR ONLY EVER POETRY AND EXERCISE IN AESTHETIC
I KNOW BROTHERHOOD IS REAL, AND I KNOW FAMILIAL LOVE IS REAL, BECAUSE MY LIFE WAS SAVED ONCE
AND RACE IS JUST AN EXTENSION AND A BROADER CASE OF THESE TWO
BUT ROMANTIC LOVE IS PROBABLY JUST FAKE, IMO
IVE NEVER SEEN IT EVER IN MY LIFE
