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7 years ago today my life changed in a moment of unconditional love, honesty, and surrender.
I didn't know what it was that happened to me when it was happening. I was driving down a major highway at the time. I thought I was going to die, but I didn't...not in the common sense of the term at least. After 10-15 seconds of intense pins and needles throughout my entire body coupled with involuntary mudras, I leaned forward and screamed through the windshield of my truck "WHAT DO YOU WANT FROM ME?!?!?".
I'd just surrendered. There was nothing for me to do. The hurricane was going to make landfall that day and there was nothing I could do about it from halfway across the country. There was no time to drive there and nobody would be flying into a hurricane. I had no other choice but to surrender or freak out. I chose to surrender.
At that time, however, I didn't know how to interpret what I'd just experienced. I gave it credit for potentially being a panic attack but I thrive when adrenaline flows so I couldn't give that explanation much weight.
I researched online. I spoke with people I thought might have answers. I went to temples. None of that yielded what I sought. Eventually, the quest for answers took a seat on the backburner because I wasn't sure where to look.
Eventually, after working on orange pilling a small libertarian internet community for about a year or so, one member of that community offered an encounter with her Medicine Man.
It was through this encounter that I received my name.
It was through this encounter that I received the clues I needed in order to figure out what I experienced on September 12, 2018.
It was this encounter that catalyzed the ongoing research bender that has produced scientifically plausible theories that close the gap between spirituality and science.
Long ago, while working at a learning center, I established 3 life goals:
1. To understand
2. To be understood
3. To have a positive impact on the world
Frankly, I chose those goals because I believed that I would never fully accomplish them and I still believe that to have been a valid reason despite the incredible leaps of progress in understanding that have been distilled from this research.
It is a pleasure to share this research with you all.
My hopes are high.
One person can and has changed the world many times.
None of you would be here on NOSTR using Bitcoin if that wasn't the case.
Someday, I hope to look back on this period of uncertainty and know that the collective anxieties and suffering of mankind were mitigated to some degree by all of this.
I love you all.
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I loosely label this kinds of experience as a 'dark night of the soul' experience.
A collapsing of the self & a surrendering to the All that is.
You'd be surprised by how many Bitcoiners have had similar experiences. What they experienced & what they took from them differs but it's too common to be a coincidence.
Many would be surprised by that, I agree.
I wrote about it in one of my articles: "Time is Bitcoin"...not to be confused with Gigi's "Bitcoin is time".
You'd probably like my articles.
I quoted Mollison once in there and I'm assuming you'll recognize the content that inspired the Thanksgiving piece.
https://loveisbitcoin.com/author/redtailhawk/
I call it the Bitcoin metanoia.
nostr:nprofile1qyx8wumn8ghj7cnjvghxjmcpz4mhxue69uhk2er9dchxummnw3ezumrpdejqqgxqx7ngjl0cd075ma2fdjn7yvvfj268v6yhlvv0h5wng7j0g3vltctw38v3 confirmed to me once on X that in his private notes, he calls it the Bitnoia.
It's Maslow's Hierarchy of Needs playing out.
As for the dark night of the soul and whatnot, yes, that is related.
It's kind of both an event and a process.
The "dark night of the soul" I describe as the period during which one is stripped of that which they never truly were...stripped of their "earthly trappings of the personality".
It corresponds with "salvation", i.e. disSOLVe...SALVation.
It corresponds with the "possession" associated with "djinn" but the possession is 180 degrees the opposite of what is really happening. It's a dispossession of the "earthly trappings of the personality".
It corresponds with the hidden Sephirah, da'ath, on the Tree of Life of Kabbalah.
It corresponds to the Phoenix rising from its own ashes.
It corresponds to "solve et coagula" as well.
For me, the dark night of the soul lasted years because I didn't know what I had experienced initially. It took me nearly 53 months to feel like I had a thread to tug upon. Medicine Man gave me that.
