‘what decides the outcome of a war is politics, not the situation on the battlefield’

this is not philosophical opinion, but was actual experienced

when i don't have the same experience as someone else, i substitute what i can imagine

it's not perfect, but i can trace it

i was asked by the government to build a breakwater, and i carried it out

but the government changed its mind and i had to abandon it midway

once it was completed, people would have been able to live in a safe place

the persona like the opera fan who sympathizes with people who have suffered misfortune is gone

and things are no longer like a drama

what i had done and the future are not connected

my hope is sealed and feelings of helplessness remain here, frozen, forever

it’s heartbreaking for anyone to have the bricks they have stacked collapse by something they cannot control

i think utilizing what i have learned through these processes can save me

although i cannot understand it precisely, i will try to to see things from the perspective of the people involved rather than the audience

then i realize “hypocritical justice that is guided by simple diagrams" that i once had is foolish

i got new viewpoint