I suddenly realize that this reading habit(going through without really understanding/ absorbing the materials) is another example of me trying to fool myself(oh that unconscious!) I don’t know what’s good doing this, but I just do it.

I guess that’s also why I always hate exams or summary after reading/ learning. And I even find it a good reason: can’t we just enjoy the reading/ learning itself but not expecting any results. It’s no trouble if what I read is fiction or other funny materials but if it’s complicated subject or it is a handbook and requires me to build sth after reading, it would be a total mess. nostr:note16nxqav69p5tqup76lt2hz6f3zz4wlmll0gfken06m9hl5c66mn6sd942uw