Same bro i have lost Lost friends and fam toooo young, and while a tear rolls down my face and I think of them it has made me stronger because the strength they gave me I have stored in my heart! Only those who are forgotten are dead, even though it is a very hard place to be, we must learn to deal with it and think of the positive things with them and smile, believe me they would not have wanted us to be sad! Think of something fun you did together and he will be with you ;) peace love n harmony bro ;)