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i have had some extraordinary experiences due to this drug, but most of the stuff you ever find is utter shit, and i tried to find something decent on the dark web but it was all fake and bullshit, and after having the real thing for real, i just don't have the patience to even try it much more, and i don't want to get into trouble and the other thing is that it makes my cramps way worse so it's just not even on my list of things to do at all

but i will just tell you, that for some people, like me, it sometimes brings on a visionary experience, and it is a very important one, i've had it happen about 3 times in my life so far

this one i had in particular really made concrete the understandings i was building about the nature of evil and psychological manipulation, but it was too heavy on my body to use and i was in the early stages of kidney problems at that point, that didn't fully manifest until a bit over a year later with vision problems and other symptoms

so, don't mistake who i am, just because i told you that i had some very important experiences that were precipitated by this drug, i am not any different to teh person you talked to before, this was part of how i came to be like this

disrupting the parts of the brain that meth wakes up is a big part of how i became who i am, defines so many of my dreams and my life experiences, and of course, why i have a particular interest in the drug

i don't need it, it just made me feel some moments of health and gave me some insights that i had to go through to get there. i know that what it was doing was just limiting things that were causing me to live in a fog for a brief time and those moments helped me forwards

Comte de Sats Germain 1y ago

I understand, and can relate. Experiences make us who we are (or think we are, if the other guy didn't block me yet (oof, shouldn't have said that...)).

Visions come when your spiritual matrix is weakened. That terminology sounds clunky, but its my best stab at it for now. I had something similar after the covid vaccine, which nearly killed me. But, it also made me a Christian... and not a blind one. So I'm thankful, but also never want to go through that again.

If you're going to use substances to induce visions, which I don't think is a good idea, do it with preparation. There are rituals... Idk, never used them, but rituals are very useful. Spend a few years looking inside before trying that. Be able to recognize that parasite you mentioned without aide and figure out how to remove it. Be prepared. Strengthen yourself sufficiently that you're not flirting with death when you try it.

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ᴛʜᴇ ᴅᴇᴀᴛʜ ᴏꜰ ᴍʟᴇᴋᴜ 1y ago

i wasn't taking it for visions, they just have happened on several occasions, one particular series of images that were from a dream i had as a child was really really frequent, almost a defining experience in my mid 20s when i was trying to cook it myself

this particular event was because i didn't realise what i had bought was the 100% most legit meth i had ever been in possession of in my life, 99.5% pure i would estimate, pure dextro methamphetamine, it is an amazing drug but it's extremely hard to find it anywhere, and i come from australia, where they deliberately started to contaminate medicines with carcinogenic plastics to obstruct small scale manufacturers and keep the supply under their control, made from imported chinese pure pseudoephedrine cooked up in chinese labs

i should also add that of the people i had some dealings with in those days was a straight up demon, he and his friend, who i met first, were pivotal in creating a market in MDMA where i lived (queensland/northern new south wales) and i also had a quite extraordinary experience on my birthday in 2003 due to the material the not evil of the pair gave me a bunch of his material from) and note that this all was contemporary to when i wrote the Elfspice Compleat Acacia Extraction Guide which you can find if you just copy and paste that text into a search engine, it's on tripod, i wrote that thing, it was one of my early attempts to do some neat stuff with CSS also btw

i had some pretty far out experiences with the drug underground in that part of the world in those times between 1995 and 2003, and out of all of them meth was the one i pinned my hopes on as a way to regain the ability to function and break through my huge problems with getting a regular income in my 20s, after i ... well, anyway, maybe you have heard the story about my friends and i prank on our school who introduced an early beta test of the modern chinese social credit score system

freeborn | ἐλεύθερος | 8r0gwg 1y ago

(you guys can remove me from the rest of this discussion, if you'd like, I'm not interested in Meth and having nothing more to contribute).

ᴛʜᴇ ᴅᴇᴀᴛʜ ᴏꜰ ᴍʟᴇᴋᴜ 1y ago

also, yeah... my personal return to christianity was a slow path, i started to see more and more of it as i bumbled into the bitcoin twitter and i'd had many visions also during my time homeless in 2015-2016, and probably one experience with PCP and a random person who bumped into me, connected to some weird person i met on facebook, who subsequently rapidly disappeared from my radar, he was some kind of jew apologist, lived in Tel Aviv and all, and another weird guy who spoke Esperanto and was into Bah'ai and connected to Soros' Open Society Foundation, which i quizzed him about at one point, because it had appeared on my radar and was very suspicious

so, idk... i guess you might say that i became convinced that i was being guided towards something, especially since said Bah'ai esperanto person dropped Phillipians 4:6-7 on me which precipitated a massive experience involving prayer, that probably this moment, in, of all places, an esoteric bookshop/teahouse next to the main market square of Rome nearby Termini train station, was probably the most pivotal moment, and that set me on the path of persuing social networks, i started a blog, and not long after that bumped into Steamit (and this connects me with nostr:npub1cxp3l03x20mkzezzr4takm8w8zuva7xwvacmcewp97z58hjt8xls3mexlq who still posts on that chain) where i had some unquestionably bizarre and prophetic experiences, especially one incident as i was travelling north out of Bologna and was told to wait a minute and then a helper appeared and gave me food that ran me for the next two days and made me convinced without any remaining doubt that when i spoke to God as per that verse in Phillipians, that i was being heard, and that answers would come, sometimes, and in this case, it was literally like a telepathic voice in my head