Oh but that sense of urgency grown to stressful paranoia to balance chaos and uncertainty is no more,

A warm fuzzy feeling of certainty of being on the right track, those anchors of memories from the future falling true, instead of untrue ones.

You can’t put a price on that, maybe the meth feeling is when the mind lives something unexplainable to its innocent mind, like magic, like wonder, lime smarties caught with their hands in the googler market