I read fiction voraciously as a youth

Researched in High School

Since I was young

Walk to the library

read the preface or first chapter

any book which piqued interest

Rarely able to keep interest in a subject after multiple books

College taught me

only idiots need professors

Yet still unable to keep focus on interest

After a month of dedicated study

Id be drained all drive

I had several isolated hefty volumes under my scrutiny

Life with my wife changed all

stability

good sex & healthy food

Monks I respected had it all wrong

Finally able to stay focused

Interest now insatiable of a bloodhound

unix systems

coding

computer networking

data scraping

massive data archiving

code frameworks

kernel applications

reading the AMD64 cpu manuals

I realized the limit to the DEPTH of computing

NOT the breadth

computer foundation exposed

As abstraction to logic of mathematics

near the release of Undernet

years proven stable archive framework

IF the project moved forward

meant to rely blindly on cryptography

the computing scene knew as government blackbox

my pursuit

right of life to exchange communication

free from government oversight

privacy peer to peer

without which all society improvements destined to be in VAIN

I took the deep dive

Intelligent and familiar with Calculus

ALL IN COMMIT until Worthy

Computing is a new area of study

consequently the barrier to craft LOW

Mathematics has been refined

since before recorded history

The best minds have all curated its tree

My superior intellect cultivate from life lived boldly & thoughtfully

only drove me deeper into the SPIRAL

Intelligence in mathematics

draws one to the basic elements

Stupidity & Lies draw one out into

Fields of superficial acquaintance of advanced topics

now ENTIRELY screwed

4 years of total obsession

sure missed days or a lapse of break

overall a clock of 3hr daily

Ch1 Calculus problems

Ch1 Intro to Matrix problems

time unwasted

past the basics

into the advanced

authors fall-apart

inability hidden by clouds of assumed mastery

uninitiated presume complexity due lack of own experience

fault in an overstretch of teacher

past what they have mastered

wretched putrid loathesome

lovecraftian blasphemy

academic spawn twisted grotesque

molestedchoirboynowpriestmolestingchoirboys

as their kind before them generation of intellectual perverted inbred

monstrosity to the few

able to comprehend the elements

I SPIT UPON ACADEMIA

nimrods & clowns

I am filled with love hope & faith

when I look over Euler's work

simple practical calculative

never above the elements

curious and excited for simple truths

advanced mathematics more an accident & brief vacation

I had despised computing peers as total pussy

but these inept so-called mathematicians BRICKbrainLIARtarded

a neverending source of disdain

able to fill me with HATE necessary keep this machina FULLTHROTTLE

In me the past dead

have placed their hope

thanks dipshits caz yall stoopid

plenty desperate to aide me

alone in the night

peaceful vibe

spread o snacks

Enamored by the journey

adventure need only a book

paper pen or ipad

the struggles and strifes

each and every a bully

the inevitable conquests

glory in a multitude of forms

high to extravagant costs

none match the present

butler-husband

mathematician