I need to stay here to be safe. I need to buy this or have that. To feel I exist, I require attention, so I shall have these clothes, that car.

Or

I am not them. To feel smart and superior I ensure I let myself and others know how much I don't need those things. I rebel to be noticed.

Both are traps. Neither are you.

If you do not live in a state of deep peace and love, you are, to varying degrees, mentally unwell. A slave to thoughts and emotions that add nothing to life.