I have no cure for what you've described. It saddens me but from what I can read you turned out alright. I can just add that I was born and raised in Eastern Europe. I hope there's no need to explain what communism is or its consequences.
The way I see it, neocommunism is already here. Bitcoin appears to be one of the few options to defend against it as a species. Since under 0.02% are hodling their own keys, I guess people have voted on what they want. Regardless, I see a lot of hope from the pure signal.