today I'm going to take you on a stroll thru my past life.

for context, I was always my mother's wildest child. though I grew up going to church almost five times a week, I was eternally wrecked by my love of music. it all started when I learned how to play the piano at the age of six and started singing in the children's choir. my first experience in stardom was making the Sicilian pastor's wife SOB and all the other kids SUPER JEALOUS. I learned very early on that being so good at something would put a target on my back and I did not gaf.

subsequently, I was a huge loner. on top of that, I was homeschooled so I had way too much time on my hands to learn whatever I wanted. my dad bought a computer when I was nine and I quickly learned how to install floppies and navigate MS-DOS so I could play computer games and help my mom design church pamphlets in digital art programs. when the internet came along, I spent a lot of time figuring out the world wide web and started dreaming of fantastical things.

however, music is more fun to me and always was so I did not do coding. I just figured that someday I could just hire code monkeys to do system building because I wanted to design my own operating system as I hated the windows and apple OS's. plus, my brother was into all that so I figured he could be that code monkey someday. I started learning more instruments and started writing my first acoustic guitar album at the age of 20 while I was in college.

at 21, I was like, idk, maybe somebody should build a transparent digital accounting system for churches since these megachurches are asking for money all the time and nobody knows where it goes. then I got low key obsessed with the dark world of the occult, but found it to be a front for degenerate bullshit. by then I'd written like a hundred songs and one of my acoustic Led Zeppelin covers got a lot of view on YouTube. some weirdos from the freemason's club were into it. I also began learning audio engineering and started producing demos.

a lot of drama was going on in my personal life, and around 24, I was "introduced" to the conspiracy journals and started reading about things concerning international banking mafias that rocked my little world. shit got straight WEIRD almost immediately. idk how to tell this part in its full weirdness but I somehow knew about the PRISM program before Snowden blew the whistle on it and this scared me shitless. really, it was because I figured out that Facebook was keylogging and all my metadata was being used for social profiling. I never trusted my iPhone after that and left a one word note in my notes app that just said "PRISM".

despite my fears and paranoia, I began digging deep into the internet to find out more and stumbled upon a lot of internet forums talking about how the internet was being used for sexual exploitation. so I went on a long journey away from my hometown and eventually ended up in Thailand, where I began independently investigating the link between social media and human trafficking. a couple years later, when I returned to the US, I was a hot mess and couldn't tell anyone about my findings or experiences.

I spent almost five years in a relationship trying to just be normal and began finishing the production of indie pop songs that I'd started composing while in Thailand. sadly, the better I got at all things music related, the worse our relationship got. it reminded me of how the little kids at my church hated me for being "special" except now it was my boyfriend.

at the time, I had no idea that anyone even listened to my music until shit once again started getting straight WEIRD. it honestly felt like I was being hunted by Satan from the shadows. I had no choice but to expose my other hobby of reading the forbidden conspiracy journals and I went on twitter to do that. everything went berserk when I said "fuck it" and started blasting Mark Zuckerberg on Instagram for being a sex trafficker, the allegations being that he was allowing sex trafficking to occur on Instagram.

in the middle of this shit storm, many politicians, media, celebrities, and influencers became aware that I was about to pull some black swan shit, but they interpreted this as my being a terrorist and not a citizen journalist because they're literally retarded and corrupt. I was offered all sorts of things to STFU but I would not, even a seat in Congress if I wanted to join the Democrat Party. frankly, they are all high key Satanic to me and now we all clearly see it.

but there have been many strange and almost deadly games played since then and some figures who have also had to thug it out because of this. in the past five years, the political climate has drastically shifted and, imo, that's just what happens when you make it a life's mission to expose people to the truth. it's very controversial in that the untold stories of history aren't exactly welcomed by those who wish for them to remain a mystery. we all know who those people are and what they control and WHO they control, but at least the public now knows and that's important.

that said, I still hate politics. I find it to be the one area where everything good goes to die and everyone who gets involved in it is ultimately compromised by money. be that as it may, this isn't the first time anyone's been censored and worse by these people. it's just par-for-the-course with them. Nostr is like a lifeline in this sense, because even the owner of the other platform is guilty of his own misdeeds in this entire situation. to say that that man helped wreck my musical career is an understatement, though I think his preferred framing is as a hero.

actually, the heroes were the few good men and women within the intelligence community who put a moratorium on all of it for the sake of my not getting murdered. but as bureaucracy goes, the end goal is always the survival of the beast. lots of politicians both left and right hate my literal guts, but so do a lot of rich celebrities and influencers who would literally just DIE if I ever popped out again. I constantly have to remind myself that it all did happen and it all happened the way it was supposed to happen. I could not have made their downfall any easier.

obviously, I have gained nothing but drama from all of this. almost the entire world has awakened from their stupor and it is what it is. once you've had every accusation in the book thrown at you and it's all been debunked, the last thing these people can do is hope I unalive myself. sorry, but that's not gonna happen because I still have more music to produce. nothing and no one is worth losing that opportunity over, and I do mean literally nothing and no one.

many people have goals higher than money, power, and fame, and I am one such human being. but there is power in words and power in music. these are my chosen weapons and apparently I use them quite well, regardless of how the social media platform overlords feel about it.

anyways, all of this is to say that no matter who tries to stop you, you can make a difference in the world just by not giving a fuck about what the powers that be think. they suck and they're all pretty much just greedy, low IQ grifters in the end. success is a vibe and the rest is just theatre.

haters will say things like, "you can just do things," but this is just them conceding that they wish they weren't such haters. actually, like the band America once said, "YOU CAN DO MAGIC."

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