I’ve been on a strong spiritual and mental journey the past week. A few months ago it started as a sort of “seeking help” phase. I knew something could be better or done differently. I don’t want to survive I want to live so finding solace in the things I have and control has greatly improved my viewpoints. Idk people want to act or seem weak to others but for me I am the opposite. I think partly it’s because the life that was written for me supposed to stay its course. I was the one who chose to dedicate time and resources to learning more about computers. I’ll be the first to say it’s ridiculous you can work from a computer and use it as your main source of income. People used to always say computers were the future but scoffed when you brought up job opportunities with them. The worst part about being where I’m from in the US is that if you think outside the box your too imaginative, not thinking right, have your brain set on the wrong things. Mental fatigue from dealing with the usuals is always at a all time high, never getting the reception you deserve, and just being brushed off sucks. I always feel wrong when I know I’m right, proving people wrong by actions and outcomes never helps resonate the idea that hey, this could work see? Uphill battle my whole life, either way im not going to stop and chasing my dream of doing something good with my mindset and integrating technology.