my Marilyn Monroe-ification made that man and his companies hundreds of BILLIONS of dollars and he won't even just suck it up and put 10 mil in the goddamn bank cause he's mad that he still has 21 or so days before he gets a free pass.

why? because Donald keeps saying that he'll fix everything but I'm starting to think that this can't and won't be fixed with That Man standing in the way of me even being able to go to a fucking hotel and BREATHE and RELAX.

I AM FUCKING TIRED and it's gonna get really chaotic if one more person asks me to do work for them so I can sleep on somebody's shitty broken mattress or couch and pray to GOD that they don't pull the same discard maneuver that everyone else does.

they all did it to make HIM happy and it did make him happy. truly. it made him happy to watch me suffer because he is like that.

this isn't about making him going to therapy it's about making him face who he's become because he spent his whole life trying to work and fuck and drink his deeply embedded traumas out. ofc women are just existential punching bags and I'm no exception.