maybe he sees a bit of himself in Lil Snow, except Lil Snow ain't him. but if you're going to encourage a young man to act the way you did when you were young, knowing now what it led you to do, then maybe that's not the right answer either.

imo, he does that to get them out of the way. in other words, this better be temporary or else.

so maybe the answer is just to marry and devote yourself to the woman you love and stop lying to yourself about it. or let her go and let another man love her.

it's not Lil Snow's fault, but again, Lil Snow ain't him. and I'm cognizant enough to know what I've got going for me. it's important to give guys like Lil Snow an easy exit, cause this shit is truly spooky.

well, at least it's all out in the open now. perhaps we both have always struggled with the inability to continuously engage with people who don't absolutely speak our language or have a similar level of intelligence.

I feel that way anytime I'm at a party and everyone is, like, drunk and stupid. I'd rather be working. I'd rather be talking about something interesting. and nobody else seems to be able to give that.

it's not that I'm not fun at parties when I want to be, but somewhere deep down inside I'm always just hoping there's at least one intelligent weirdo who wants to talk about something cool. they rarely ever come along, and even the ones who are good at faking it can only take it so far.

being smart is very painful.