It's deep. He made me hate God and life. I've witnessed lifelong disrespect and mental abuse of my mother who doesn't deserve it. Instead of being happy for who I am and what I've achieved, he was envy I did it and not him. It made me give my coins away, hammer my pc and slit my wrist. I'm living a new life now. I am telling a story, but it is in the past, I don't blame anyone, we are all one, he is me and I am him, I live day by in acceptance.