A part of me doesn't want to join that CNA/LPN program I applied for. I have an interview on Thursday. It's a way to make a living. I'd be able to find work anywhere.

The part of me that doesn't want to do it has this idée fixe that it could do something great with its life, intellectually or artistically. "Could" though. I mostly do nothing, and no one cares. I have little to show for those ambitions.

The program would be the realistic option of turning a nobody into a somebody. It's a trajectory.