Just learn to be pleasing and faithful to a man. Most women will never know what life can be like with a man who is pleased with you.
Stop waiting around. From 17 on date “with intention.”
Is he nice/polite?
Does he respect you himself and others?
Does his lifestyle(transportation, clean and neat, financially responsible, faith bound) suggest that he is a good candidate to love and honor?
There is so much more. Ask the Creator to help/guide you.
Like all of us big girls need a lifetime love not just an occasional booty call. Get serious and be when a “right” one comes along.