No Birkin bag, no effort, no sweet words, no yacht, no flowers, no bitcoin. Not that I need them, but to show commitment—because I can live with a rented yacht that I pay for myself, I live with Chanel bags, I live with Ethereum, I live without flowers. I live without sweet words, making myself happy, pretending to be a charming man from my fake address. I just needed a bit of love, but what I got in return was realizing I’m just someone who believes in my own hallucinations.