I'm tired of attacking people all the time, but I'm also tired of watching people kill the planet they live on like that's a survivable thing to do.
"Tired" isn't the right word. This hamster wheel has fundamentally changed me. I'm waiting for my turn to change it.
Attacking people for things they do wrong feels good, but it does not deter them from doing those things (and might actually strengthen their resolve to do them). It's a goid emotional outlet but it is an ineffective way to bring change.
What is an effective way to bring change? Manipulation, unfortunately. Which sucks, because I neither like it nor am good at it. But it's the most effective way.
I'm considered manipulative because of my selfish emotions and stuff, but I hate using deception or being seen as manipulative so it doesn't end up being useful in my opinion
Calling a spade a spade can you spell out what you do? I can't work out even what "loves Digit" means.
I mainly just try to get Digit to talk to me, which involves trying to become less ostracized and safer for her to talk to while also doing any outreach I can to try to make sure she encounters my posts online and knows I'm still thinking about her all the time
