Why does the sound put me in a trance? I hear the whispers & I feel the air change then all of a sudden this surge overwhelming me. It keeps me indulged into my pain, anger, animosity, & shame. The song reminds me it will never go away & like a memory it's hear to stay.

I'm trying to get back up after i've been defeated my foundation is none & world has been deleted. Everything that was relevent is no more today was a day I felt something I hadn't before.

For the first time in a long time I felt like I need to work my body & get into the sore pains I felt my hate turn into strength even though it was a fleeting moment it felt good because it reminded me i'm still sane. I watched JW4 & felt the need to practice fighting again I want this feeling to stay.

It's hard when you have a spiritual hole because everything comes & goes away. Part of who you are is missing & you're susceptive to any feeling that whims its way. Theres even moments where I am terrified at nothing but then I look around & notice something. Someone may be doing wrong around me & if it bothers me i'm just gunna lose it on them.

It's time to practice Shujinko's Mantis style once again & Bo Rai Cho's Drunken Monkey I use to be good at it when I was a kid. I use to watch the making videos of Mortal Kombat Deception the stunt fighters who they record their moves I practiced those steps. Over & over again like there was nothing else I was commited then & determined like nobody else. I also use to practice Jin Kazama's style in Tekken 4 when he switched to Jin Karate & would never practice the Mishima style anymore.

I want to free my mind so I can turn my body into a weapon every step towards that will lead me out of depression. But all that cost money in this world of living deception it's all goes to bills & not towards my build. I wonder how I can get help maybe a zap or two will be a start in itself.

I wish I had a team to help me concentrate on myself & if I ever get there I will return the gift to those with wealth. I need to make it a priority to concentrate on my health & I can openly admit that I need your help.

For those willing to read together we all can be free if we buy some land & put a wall for all to see that the poor people banded together & created a sanctuary for those in need. For a cause like this I would put money into thee & my blood for it I will bleed. Because once I own some land I will never let it go & I will make my decree to help those lost in woe.

The worst pain any human can feel is to be tormented alone & that is why I want the land to build my big home & with this home I will let in those who need it but treat my grace with respect or you won't be needed & rejected from the land i'm trying to create peace in. I've seen to many people let themselves go to drugs even though I was above it I let myself go too but not to drugs just having too much faith in evil people.

If my dream shall ever come true you will know my land in the United States I will mark the borders with red & gold flags with a crest most people will be familiar with courage, wisdom, & power will come to you when you see it.

But in order for me to achieve this I need you, your support, faith, & commitment. Whats a better cause then to help those who are hurt & have been defeated.

Listen to this song please.