haha, that almost read like my own personal history, including the cameos of the cameos.
my problem was that none of them took the idea of marriage seriously, and i was ready at 21, and it took me 10 years to get over her calling it off.
never got back on my feet after that, and last gf i had was this cute, boistrous surinammer who was the rare, one-time appearance of an elegible female in the homeless drop in centers i was stuck huddling in to stay warm in the cold of that dank city. little clown.
i couldn't keep her, so she went back to Den Haag where she came from, to maybe find something more interesting than tedious capital city vibes.
i don't care about one single superficial detail of it, at this point. she has to be lively, she has to be loyal, and she has to not be jealous of the time i have to spend talking to people about software development. and ideally, about 25-35 age. ideally, she is an artist or craft fan. idc if she writes haikus, paints icons, designs logos, or teaches yoga or something. main requirement is she digs paleo diet, likes to be away from crowds and cities, and wants to make our house into a place where humans can learn to be human.