I was brought up Catholic and had a love of the church and my "faith". I was actually considering entering the priesthood when I was about 19 and had the opportunity to visit the Vatican. I had a semi-private tour of the place and met the Pope at the time, John Paul 2.

At some point, I asked if I could visit the Vatican Library. The church guys that were escorting us around kinda looked at one another and laughed arrogantly in dismissal. They told me one had to have special credentials to go into the library.

I left the Catholic church shortly thereafter, realizing the hierarchy was one of control and secrecy.

Eventually you find that the same goes for ALL organized religions.