I really appreciate your perspective. I like to contemplate why thousands of saints would sacrifice their own lives for such a faith. Yes, the values of Christianity are noble and righteous. But this isn't the main reason to adopt it or believe in it.
The main reason should always be because of its truth. If you don't believe that Christ is the Son of God, it would follow that the Gospel is at least partially false. If it's false, then it should be held at a distance while being scrutinized and ultimately rejected if that falsity proves to be the case.
If there is a god that created such perfect mathematical order, we still need an explanation for sin and the evil in this world. Would such an all powerful god not create a path of redemption for the brokenness of the world? The Gospel has answers for all of this.
I encourage everyone to continually contemplate the claims of the Gospel. Its commandments should be adopted and strive for because the Gospel is true, not for any other reason. If you haven't arrived at the conclusion of it's authenticity, then continue to scrutinize and verify.