yeah, you make bad decisions when pressure is high
get really fast to one point and then have bugs that just don't wanna show themselves and resolve, even after a full month trying to find them
makes me damn near suicidal depressed
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Gets to the point where you're questioning your sanity
Yup. Drowning in technical debt.
to be honest right at the moment i'm feeling like i am gonna have trouble resuming forward motion
i've got things i can do but i need to have the confidence that carries over to satisfying those who pay that i can do something valuable
in the last month i've probably done more effective progress than i did in the 5 previous to that, mainly because i was focused on actually making sure every part works before moving to more abstract things
I feel like that, sometimes, and then something will suddenly inspire me and I'm hacking like a crazy person. 😅
i will be on enforced break with this dinged up right arm for a bit but there's relatively more simple tasks lined up that i'll be starting next week, easy stuff, just aggregator code, need to learn how bluesky encodes its shit and where to vacuum its data from and how
and i'll be continuing to work on my rewrite of the nostr codecs, there's only like 5 more envelopes to do and a few other pieces and it will be ready to put to use
Get well soon, fren! Didn't know you'd been injured.