repeatedly today i have had this feeling like

i'm sick of living in the european soviet socialist socialist republics

there is no beef here

there is not even hardly any plain pasteurised milk

it's just corn fed chicken, corn fed pork, stringy, rubbery veal, UHT milk, and ten tons of vegan food that i don't want to eat because it makes my type 2 diabetes continue to get worse

at this point i'm facing a quandary

starting to feel like i'm not gonna make any progress and wondering just how long until i slip one day walking around these steep slopes

or if i should just go and be an illegal immigrant in a country where i can still get beef, where there is even raw milk available, where i can buy petri dishes without being accused of being a bioterrorist, and even in many places smoke some medicine that helps reduce several of my symptoms like the constant cramps

what do you think?

should i be migrating to north america?

i'm so tired of europe... the only part that has treated me well has been the balkans and out of that region, the best is not in the EU, bosnia was my favourite