I was reading through my journals and ran across this.

It makes me think of this great clip from Dustin Hoffman discussing a movie he made way back in 82 called Tootisie, I’ll drop it in the comments.

In that movie he plays an man who is pretending to be a woman and he wanted the makeup artists to make him a beautiful woman. When he saw himself as a woman…

“I was shocked that I wasn’t more attractive ...now you have me looking like a woman, now make me a beautiful woman. ...if I was going to be a woman I would want to be as beautiful as possible.” But that was as pretty as they could make him.

“It was at that moment that I had an epiphany, I went home and started crying talking to my wife. … I think that I’m an interesting woman… and I know that if I met myself at a party I would never talk to that character. ...there are too many interesting women I have not had the experience to know in this life ...because I have been brainwashed.”

The world will shove so much shit down your throat. It takes decades to remove it.