Super conflicted right now. This is mostly internal rambling feel free to ignore.

So last night when I was getting dinner after work I ran into this IT guy we started talking and he basically offered to get me an interview. Only a few issues after looking at the company.

Most of their positions need secret clearance and even though I'm not a felon I'm to involved with weed (growing, smoking, whatever.) to EVER get secret clearance. I'm also not even sure its something I want. Secondly I've already had a job where I delt with the DoD and NCIS and I really fucking hated it. I don't like the US government and don't want to support it as it currently stands. Especially not the fucking military

But part of my brain would really like to have a kush ass job that pays well and lets me travel. I think most people would like that. Im still gonna email the guy but I think Im going to be very open about how I feel because id hate to let the opportunity pass if they still want to work with me but I guess as I get older im less and less willing to compromise my morals and the way I live my life just for a job.

anyways. just venting/ thinking and typing out loud. I think in the end Id rather make what I consider an honest living by not supporting a corrupt government system. Id rather use my skill to support plebs and local business where I can.