I am very tired. I try not to think about all the ways people have tried to take everything from me, including my future, but the worst really is the interventions of the state in preventing witnesses like us from meeting each other, at the very least for friendship and emotional support.

it's years of our lives that could not be spent building and growing in each other's presence; good moments of friendship that would have made all of this a lot less shitty; compounding resentment from being unable to look each other in the eyes and feel something together.

I've always believed that someday we would be free from all of this because the work isn't finished and this is important to the future of civilization. it's not about a hopeful future of exploration, it's about reinventing and rebuilding something that is broken beyond repair HERE and NOW.

that's the future I want to focus on.

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