Today she calls me to say we should live separately for a while. I did not believe her. I remained calm. I am able to observe and transform my emotions. They cannot rule me. We end the call with her admitting she's using toxicity and drama as a cry for help. She's in pain. She is the source of that pain. Only she can convince herself she is loved. I will not feed the monster. She is such a beautiful soul... But like this an evil cunt. I don't want it anymore. I don't think she does either. This is our healing process. We've been through so much.