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When last year I unexpectedly found myself making a very hard decision of changing what was only going to be a 6 weeks trip back to my home country in early February... And choosing to take my immobile grandmother with dementia out of an elderly home she was clearly being neglected at, taking her back to her empty home and the house I grew up at until I was 10 in my home town with hopes to find her better care, and essentially ending up caring for all her needs for many months... I effectively trapped myself unable to leave and go anywhere for more than 2 hours at a time a day. Oh my was that challenging.

I lived 45-60 minutes away from this beach in Greece and I was not able to go get sun and sea the entire season once summer came about. When finally it had become clear I must go now and I felt complete with my service... as much as I wished I could provide more care for my grandmother essentially knowing noone else could or would ever provide her what my heart and love did for her... and I was preparing to leave, I was able to catch the very last three days of the season... And enjoyed the peace here without the crowds.

Sweet memories. This song came out a year before we left my home town, I had no idea what it is about but I really loved when it came on MTV.

#sand #sun #sea

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brian 1y ago

You are so sweet to know your heart and the limits its grace can bring forth. I wish your grandmother as much peace as one can know when suffering from dementia (and you as witness to her dissolution). My grandmother also suffered from the condition.

I wish you could do more, but sometimes all we can do is learn to say goodbye when the person we loved is already two feet out the door, arms raised, waiting for their wings to sprout.

Diyana 1y ago

Oh man, you are making me cry right now 😭😭😭😭 I'd managed to put that on a shelf. It's too much.🥺 Part of why I feel I left is that while I knew this so far had been part of my real life training as #deathdoula I just did not want my grandmother to die on me... Because I just felt I couldn't handle that much grief this close. ❤️ Thank you, for your sweet words and acknowledgement. I am sorry to hear you have experience this too. Peaceful dissolution is a good way to describe it. 🙌🏻❤️‍🔥🦚🐦‍🔥🌹🌠🧿

brian 1y ago

I'm with you. it's so hard to say goodbye to someone who is already gone and cannot reciprocate.

My Grandmother was trying to tell us she wanted to leave. She left the oven open, the burners on, she wandered out and stepped in front of a semi truck, and having survived these attempts, the universe blessed her with a virus and she passed quickly while recovering from the broken hip (from the truck).

Robertrobert 1y ago

You are a wonderful daughter!🌅🕊️🎄