first few months, I have been quite careful... waiting a week or more in between dose. listening to my sleep pattern, my thoughts. how this truly affected me. I did like it very much really fast... I would not feel addicted automatically, but I could see how this could get addictive very fast. no doubt about it. I was already reading about this for a long time... and I kept reading too.. Definitely did not want to smoke it... it clearly felt like it would unlock something that was far more dangerous...
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Come October, I get to finally visit my mom and do some clean up in my old life... I had then access to my old Dexedrine prescription, and old leftovers from 2011, wow ! that was hell of a trip. I had a friend giving me some Ritalin too, I did not do enough to really compare... but I had done some Ritalin in the past,... 2007 I believe? it was great... that's for sure... if only I could get that today....
January 2024, my personal life is getting bigger and keeping that 2nd job has become unsustainable... I started using more regularly, but remain very responsible anyway... I quit the second job, and my mom passed away in February... I'm not too affected, she wanted to die for a long time, and I am happy I could spend those 7 months, I talked to her on the phone almost every day... she was glad to be finally able to leave this world... bye bye Maman.