I was going to respond to this privately but decided not to. I was away from home when I saw your reply on Amethyst (mobile) and wanted to reply wholesomely while in front of a desktop PC.

I have struggled all my life with being an outcast too. Fortunately, at this age (secret) I have come to be proud of my outcast membership.

If I weren't an outcast all my life I would not have grown into the same individual I am today. If someone hasn't any outcast experience, then I question their ability to interpret the world in a meaningful way.

Being an outcast is something I am thankful for every moment of my solitary life. While I am mowing my lawn, while I am vacuuming the cryptocave (mybasement) and while i eat dinner, open a beer, and lay my head down to sleep at night and cuddle my cat.

If I were not an outcast, I would be watching the grammies, checking stock apps, and chasing hoochies and attending mainstream events.

My story is very similar in the general terms you described, in the interest of time we won't into that much detail just yet, point being it struck me as I can definitely relate.

I agree we are not the problem. But it is also our responsibility not to let the problem become our problem. I am blessed to have cushy work from home job where im revered as an expert and provide meaning day to day, however the company is far from perfect and many people with the same job as me spend all day complaining and whining about how hard their life is because of this job. Its not. They are the problem. They create their own problems. They love problems. Agent Smiths. Avoid them like the plague.

Once in a while, along the narrow path, you will encounter beings who share this with you and constructive and positive communication becomes elementary to both your presences.

You will wonder why you even spend more than a minute talking to normies daily.

"You can be alone in the universe, or you can be alone AS the universe."

I am sure you are not one of them and your job is unfair.

But with your will and courage and everything you have been through it is completely within your reach to change that situation. Maybe not within days or weeks, but it is within your reach. I am sure I should be reminding myself of this one day in the future when I have a job that treats me unfairly.

The earth has split, the eclipse has passed. Know your worth and that something is different now. You have already won.

"and as much as possible, do not get entangled in the affairs of others".