I did end up married. I lost my husband tragically and it took me too long to recover. It still hurts a decade later. I do not know how people jump into a new relationship after something like that.
I ran off to teach for the Peace Corps for a while then found my purpose with other worthy pursuits instead of remarrying. I am too old to have children of my own now.
All my friends are married with families and I am happy to be Auntie Drea. Sounds sad, but I am actually like Candide, convinced I live in the best if all possible worlds 🤣