Thank you. As am I, ..very grateful.

I'm entirely intrigued. See the version of you that i see is very similar to the old version of me. Relentless go getter, figures out anything without instructions, and just starts using it or doing it, curious to the point of near insatiability for knowledge. Then I realized at 38.5 that all of these things I'-d been doing, what I was missing was faith in God. So I got that right, and everything is far far far more balanced. But it lead to some interesting realizations.

--Not everything is as it seems.

--The earth is flat. (and we are the last to know about it.)

--There actually is a God, and this disproves the big bang theory, and so many other things.

--numerous other conspiracy theories I'd been researching over the last 20 years, coming true and living through them observing the thing I'd read about years earlier, playing out in my daily life, as it were..

So yeah. I have a ton of data on all of this, and it's entirely diametric to what you said, and it's pretty good proof.. I have scientific presentations about climate change, by scientists that dared say it's not true at all, and happy to send those your way. It's all so very interesting, truly is.

The danger most people face is they co-opt ideologies in their personality (been there done that,) but it's remarkably common.. Most people by the age of 30 are not so much knowledgeable of self, but are largely comprised of their 5 year old self, with a basket full of ideations on what the world should be and how they can help to alter the trajectory of their lives in order to achieve that espoused communal goal.

So yeah. reddit AMA. Here to help. Take your time. Rumminate, come back to it, open offer for sharing of information.