One thing you discover when you have no job and can more or less do whatever you want is what you most want is to do what life requires, and that entails making peace with situations you used to avoid when you had someone else (or customers) dictating what to do.

The irony is you are *more* bound by things than before, but because that bond is voluntary rather than coerced your goal is to appreciate its terms rather than to get it over with so you can do something else more pleasant.